Happy May!!
I was thinking on my walk yesterday about getting my scan results. My last scans mostly showed improvement. I remember people saying, “oh that’s great news” and many other similar comments. Obviously I am grateful for good results, then I think, when will the other shoe drop?? This current regimen that I am on will only work for so long and then…
I mentioned this to the Nurse Practitioner that I saw on Friday and actually started crying. Her thoughts were that it is a normal feeling but also it may be worse for me because of my nursing background. The advice she gave was to try and focus on the “now” and not think about all the negative shit that will happen. One thing I have tried to do for years is meditate. My mind just won’t shut off so I have never been successful. That is a new goal. I will try to stop my mind, meditate, and live in the “now”!! Not promising anything but I will try.
NAMASTE…..
Jen's Cancer Journey 
I can only imagine what an emotional roller coaster it is. Cancer sucks! The NP has good advice of just focusing on the moment and each day rather than the future. Maybe keep posting in this blog as journaling may help. We are all thinking of you! 💗
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Hi Jen – If only we could stop that voice in our head! It’s much easier said than done. It’s hard to find what works for you but I started reading when I went I could not stop it. Reading a good book that kept my interest did help me escape until that voice would shut up! I will continue to pray for peace of mind for you and hope you can find something that works. Stay strong and know all that are thinking of you and praying for you. Love you, Jen💕
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Hi Jenn
Keeping you in my prayers.
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